Before I Fall

Lauren Oliver writes, “Maybe you can afford to wait. Maybe for you there's a tomorrow. Maybe for you there's one thousand tomorrows, or three thousand, or ten, so much time you can bathe in it, roll around it, let it slide like coins through you fingers. So much time you can waste it. But for some of us there's only today. And the truth is, you never really know”. I chose Before I Fall by Lauren Oliver to read as my final book for the challenge. I have had this book sitting on my bookcase for several years, but have never dived deep. I watched the movie several years ago, and went out and bought the book, but never got around to reading it. 
Samantha is a straight up bully. She is one of the most popular girls in the book, and right out of the gate you see her die. It is not everyday you read a story and the main character dies in the first few pages. I was already seeing MAJOR differences from the movie, so I was excited to see where this was going. A girl named Juliet dives in front of Samantha and her friends vehicle. Juliet commits suicide, and all the girls die as well. It turns out that Samantha and her friends were bullying Juliet.
All of a sudden Samantha wakes up and it is still February 12th again. She thinks it is all just a bad dream, until it just keeps happening. Every morning she wakes up, and it is February 12th, and every night she dies. She at first thinks the day is about saving herself, but no matter what she does it just keeps happening. The story progresses with Samantha realizing she has been a horrible person to many, and soon realizes its about saving Juliet. She sacrifices herself to save Juliet. 
If you think about the irony of our current situations, it is like we are living the same days over and over during this pandemic. I wake up everyday not sure what day it is, and wear the same clothes for three days straight. Samantha got out of this predicament when she finally owned up to her situation. I feel like this can apply to our lives as well. I am the one who chooses to pretend that everyday is the same. I am not owning up to my own life, and sit in my own boredom world of misery. I could use this time to better myself, learn a new hobby, or get ahead, but instead wallow in self pity and procrastinate until the last minute like I am right now. Samantha discovered that if she changed her bad habits she would not only save Juliet's life, but she would also get to move on. Maybe we should take a cue from Samantha, and better ourselves during this uncertain time.